My sweet lullabies

February 13, 2010 at 5:25 AM 2 comments

This morning I need to write a post that is more ‘happy’ for myself for I fear that today could be tough day – just getting one of those feelings… so here it goes…this is another one of those very personal memories that I have only shared with my husband… but it’s one of my happiest and don’t want to keep it to myself.

My favorite moments spent with Hailey occurred when I was alone with her. When it was just me and her. Mom and daughter. In these moments I would be standing up or sitting in my glider. I would hold her close to me. And I would begin rocking her gently. I loved feeling the weight of her in my arms. In these moments I found tremendous joy, and in these memories I continue to find joy.

Now, if you know me at all, you know that I am not the singing type. I cannot carry a tune what-so-ever. I am not tone-deaf – I can HEAR that I don’t sound good. So I never sing in front of anyone. And I always wondered to  myself – how can I be a good mom when I can’t sing? All moms sing to their babies – what am I going to do? Hailey will hate my voice and I will not sing in front of others because that would just be embarrassing. There would be nothing soothing about my singing!

But to my own astonishment, I would sing to Hailey. Never thought I would before I had her, but when I had her in my arms, the singing felt natural. I had to sing to her.

So when it was just the two of us, I would sing to her softly. Rocking and singing. My favorite times.

I think she liked it. I know she liked it. She would either be peacefully asleep or be looking up at me with her beautiful, giant eyes. Like she was in awe of me. I loved it. I soaked it up.

What would I sing her? Not the typical lullabies – I tried many but could never remember all of the words, haha, well after all I never cared to learn them because I never thought I’d sing them! So I would sing her anything from Christmas songs to worship songs (I loved singing “Mighty to Save” – I think Hailey enjoyed it too). Many times I would make up silly songs and sing them to her.

My all time favorite song to sing to her that I think was also her favorite song to be sung – because it also happened to have a 90% success rate with soothing her…. are you ready?

“Glow little glow worm, glimmer glimmer, I see your eyes they shimmer, shimmer…”

Pretty silly right? You might be wondering where those lyrics came from…why would I think to sing her that? Was I watching that Full House episode where Uncle Jesse sings it? No…

Hailey reminded me of one of those glow worm toys – do you know what I’m talking about?  She especially reminded me of one when she was swaddled tightly and had a little hat on her head – with her round eyes and round face – she looked like a little glow worm and then the lyrics popped into my head. For some reason, Hailey seemed to love when I sang that to her. Honestly, she would be fussing and crying and I would be there holding her, rocking, and I would start singing that to her and she would stop and just look at me wide eyed like she was studying my face and my voice.

I LOVED IT.

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2 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Ilea  |  February 13, 2010 at 5:39 AM

    Beautiful 🙂

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  • 2. Grandma Cetty  |  February 13, 2010 at 8:32 AM

    Ha! She did look like a glow worm! I never thought of that. Such beautiful memories. When I sang to her some times she got a worship song, but mostly she recieved my silly made up songs too. I would sing about her mommy and daddy being right in the next room and how much they loved her and I loved her, and Grandpa, and Hannah and God all loved her.

    🙂

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